and ALSO 3 THINGS I SHOULD CHANGE ABOUT ME NEXT YEAR!
1. I'm a huge smoker. Heavy one. Can't remember last day which I spent without cigarettes. Probably around 4 years ago when I was quite like a cool-smoker. I was the one in our friends group who smoked probably the biggest amount but at the same time in my eyes it was always like ''I'm gonna quit like tomorrow and it's going to be fine.'' My-past-self couldn't imagine me right now smoking as much as I do. I smoke plenty cigarettes in night hours, especially before going to bed which makes my heart race like hell and then I can't fall asleep for about 2 hours. In the mornings first thing I think about is lighting up my cigarette but I try to eat breakfast first. I smoke a lot trough day. I smoke 2gether with my dad. I smoke around my family. It's so easy for me to smoke since everybody is aware of that. Except I don't smoke around kids and of course my little brother. Damn. If there's cure share it with me in the comment section below. Message me on Instagram. Or at least pray for me :D
2. I don't eat left-overs. What the hell is wrong with me? OK, let me explain - there's some things I'll eat but I'm picky about food I'm going to put in my body. Mostly I reject food that have been bought ready in store like any kind of salads. Everything I've made by myself I try to eat in the same day so I don't have to deal with it tomorrow. I don't know what's wrong with me, I know. This trait in me is something new and it sounds like I'm princess, but I can't help myself, mostly because I've found love for cooking, cooking fresh & healthy and whenever I see that something lays by it self in fridge for too long it feels like it's not worth enough to be in my tummy. Sounds dumb, I know. Once again pray for me to get my brain back in the head.
3. I don't know know to swim. I'm part of those people who don't fucking know how to and that's it and if you're in the club hit me up! I feel so uncomfortable in water I can't even explain it. Especially here in Latvia where sea side is dark and you don't see anything around you and also I've never found interest to jump in the local ponds or lakes as it simply doesn't feel safe. It's devastating, because I would love to know how to swim and feel safe in water, I would love to have fun with others because whenever we with friends are planning going to spend time near water I'm positive about that, but always when we got to the destination I suddenly become grumpy like ''Oh, thank you! I'm good. I'm just gonna lay here on the sand and make some sand castles by my own, maybe some ants will stand by and have some small-talk with me, also I'm about to collect some shells for my collection--'' and it goes on, LOL. I just want to wake up one morning and know how this shit works, you know.
So here's 3 facts about me, I got inspired by THIS post I made few years ago even tho I think that those facts are pretty boring and yeah. People change. If I was boring, now I'm not. Have a great day everyone and remember to smile!